A Bittersweet End to Summer
Can you believe the summer is coming to an end? A bittersweet end. The year of 2020 is an unforgettable year. Riots, Deaths and Ms. Corona. Today, count your blessings. This year can still be salvaged. God can take the bad and use it for his good. God has a lot to use for his good in 2020.
2020 is a game changer for me. The day I dreaded for eleven years came, the death of beloved Babes, my cat. I blogged about it in my last two posts. If you haven't read them, stop now and go read them. Let me tell you the good which has come from his death.
My dearest Uncle called a family conference a few weeks ago. He explained to my family that his cancer is back for the 3rd time and he was too tired to fight. He asked for each of us to speak and give him our honest opinion about his decision. The overwhelming majority of course, was to tell him to fight and not give up. When it was my turn to speak, I could speak from a heart which had experienced a great loss. I understood the anguish my family was feeling. It is hard to release your loved one even if you know they are suffering. I could let my Uncle go because sometimes you have to love someone enough to let them go from their pain. The reason we don't want to let a loved one go is because we don't want to experience the pain of loss. It is so unfair to ask a person to stay here when we know it is their time to go. A few more days, months and even years will not be enough time with our loved one. We say it will be, but it won't. God gave me an additional 4 years with Mr. Babes and it wasn't enough for my greedy flesh. I wanted one more day.
I told my Uncle that the final decision is between him and God. I would support whatever he and God agreed to. I gave him some encouragement and shared the testimony of my friend who had seven tumors in her body and every single one was benign by the Grace of God! I got off that call at peace with letting my Uncle go if that is his choice. Losing Mr. Babes strengthen me enough to understand that when you release someone to God's care, God will take care of you.
My Uncle choose to keep taking his treatments and his body is now making platelets. Glory to God. My friend's testimony encouraged him to keep fighting. He was ready for Hospice. You never know how God will use what you went through for his good. My choice to allow Mr. Babes to be entrusted to God's arms allowed me to have a peace with letting my Uncle go , if that was his choice. The story of my friend going through the agony of wondering if she had cancer for weeks and then found out she didn't have it, gave my Uncle the strength to fight for his miracle.